Sunday, March 1, 2009
dah lama aku tak write my blog due to my comp break down but now i will write often...Lately aku feel realli down with many tingy...dah few dayz i sit at home..my family problem havent settle yet...every night i cry out loud alone in my room...cry over my life...i juz cant take it anymore..i run from everione...i juz need to be alone..my life is soo empty...no one will understand i feel...i choose to be queit coz no use coz end up will get the blame...mama im sorie wat have hapen,i didnt mean to make ur life to end this way..i love u but i juz miss the old time..i dont blame her at all,i juz blame myself...how i wish i can be strong like before but end up i juz cant take it anymore..i juz cant smile or laugh now..i juz cry n cry each day...
to my dearest azaq..i know u wont read my entry coz now u bz with ur work..im sorie coz u have me as ur girlfriend who cant give you anything..i waited u every nite for ur kol,everinite...im tired syg...i juz miss u soo much,do u know that...i didnt mean to menyusahkan u..am i important to ur life??i realli need you in my side rite now but i understand u bz with ur work...everyday i miss u i will read the letter u gave me...y should we be together...i rather suffer my ownself than make u suffer too...deep down i love you much..when u ask me y i love u that much i juz cant ans...i rather keep quiet now...i mish u soo bad but i dah tak paksa or fight with you..im juz tired n im realli sick...do take care of urself...i love u syg
im feel soo lonely..realli lonely...haizz...i too weak to face wih my problem...i not strong enough to face it anymore...god only knowz how hurt i am now...
i dont need anyone to understand my situation coz i dont want to bother anyone...i juz feel soo lonely...
sign off
