Thursday, January 29, 2009
today is like my fcking day after all...my mood is all the way swing n aku tak ada mood langsung...seriouzly....
wat hapen to me,my couzin n all my brother...is all become hire wire..damn...is killing me fight with em...i love them coz they are family ..my real family blood...i didnt mean to break the relation between a sister n brother...i juz do a job as a big sis...is not i scared get the blame..seeing both of u like that realli dissapoin me..n guess wat?? that is my first time yelling at my couzin so call my makcik...im sorie.. i know ur feeling couzin being USE!n is break my heart coz the person who use u is my belove fren..realli break my heart...i keeping quiet all the way hoping that u guyz use ur brain n tink but end up wat the fcuk...u make my cousin suffer...n that's my cousin...damn it..i realli dissapoint n piss off...wat happening here...am i here to be blame again???
to my dearest boi...i not angry with u..u r not to be blame about yesterday k...but wat happen boi i get to know abt u taking that stuff..y?? haizz...wat happen to all the person i love....
my relationsip with mum realli cannot make it...my feeling?? haizz...i know how u feel mother but my feeling??who cares no one...every singal day u say im a liar...when i tel the truft u use all the wordz juz to make myslf to lie to u again...
my real father gone case...realli gone case..i juz wonder y should i be a daughter to a man name AZIZ...
school??sux..family have been saying n focing me...damn it...i juz cant!! try try!! that's all words by them TRY...realli damn it..i keep failing n failing...the feeling damn sux...ask to school money i juz feel like a peminta sedekah...
my ex...k bump into su just now?? y u not talking to me? i can feel that u avoid taking to me?? i know u still angry with me...every ting have been clear but i know u still can feel the pain..im sorie i didnt mean at all..realli...it break my heart seeing u this way...i treasure her as a buddy who r there when i need help n i wont forget that even u hate me...
i just feel like crying rite now coz all combo prob in my mind..i need my hubby to be with me in my side rite now but i cant be selfish to take him away from her friend who want her to enjoy with em....
shit shit..the feeling soo shit....im crying now like wat the hell rite...
im dammmmmmmmmmmm tired...i juz need to cry...apologize if im being rude to anyone...
peace
Sunday, January 25, 2009
heyy..im juz happy today..happy coz i got the time spend with my hubby...yeah!! tanx for the night and the toking...yeah i feel happy everitime spent with u..let us forget our past n start all over again...about my mistake n ur mistake juz make it as a pelajaran to make this relationship workz...im soo happy to get to b with u again...i juz dont wish to cry again...im juz hoping that wat ever u say come out from ur heart...
i want to spent everi singal time with my hubby coz when he start his work im sure u will be v. bz..
k im attach with him again...azaq...my love n my life...i cant leave w/o him..yeah we both make mistake n i pray for the bez for our relationship....tanx for the anniversary that u made for me...k ppl itz SABUN k...k itz weired but i love it coz it have been made by him...tanx sayang...i love it alot...happy 5th mth anni....
k i wanna sleep k soo damn tired...k beb gtg..
peace
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
sorie ppl tak update my blog dah lama...hmm kinda bz n malas nak write...there's many thingy happening around me...well update my blog daily now k...
its hurt to think about your past...but sometime u have to give a chance..the feeling fear still i feel till now but i juz pray for the bez...i dont wish to cry again...the bleed is heal but the scar still have...hmmm...but i juz hoping for the bez...give a try again....
i need to go skool k skg also my class...3 mth left...seriouzly i piss off...
k will update tomorrow k...
peace
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
hey im sorrie i didnt blog my entry yeah...kinda want be alone for awhile...im fine ppl!!
i use to cry everiday but not anymore i juz feel soo tired..i realise tht i juz being soo stupid to cry everyday for a person who does not care about my feeling...now u came in my life n say that u love me...wat??after my heart have been hurt by u deeply...sooo depply...itz still bleeding...being with u alwayz make me fear...that how much u siksa i coz of ur stupid love story with aniz...u told me now there's nothig between u n aniz but u know wat coz of her u have hurt me deeply...hearing ur name n aniz name will juz shiver me to the spine..u say coz of my lie hurt u...damn it...u know wat badingkan dgn apa u have done it tak hurt mcm mana i hurt...from love i beginning to hate u...everynite before i sleep saw ur pix make me cry coz remind me of u...itz soo painful..it easy for u to say to start a fresh but u know wat u ask me for break at wrong time...U TAK PAYAH NAK TAHU WAT IS MY PROBLEM,IM HAPPY MY FREW AROUND ME HELP ME TO SETTLE MY PROB...that's one reason y now i hate u sooo much..falling in love with juz make me realise that love is not as sweet as wat i think...azaq u kill the old me....i juz hate u n aniz....i still remember wat u say to me before " hati u ni dah tertutup utk perempuan lain selain bini i,kunci pintu dah u buang jauh2 utk pompan lain....everithing about aniz, aku akan ingat segala apa kelua dari mulut azaq....anizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz n azaqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq realli no feeling ppl on earth...maaf i cant be like ur umie yg lemah lembut...im idah who leave with her bad history n grow up to b a slekeh person that tak setaraf dgn u....
2008 tahun paling berdarah utk aku....selamat tingal 2008 dan selamat kekasih hati ku azaq...
i juz want free like a bird...no more cry no more hurting....
peace
