Thursday, January 29, 2009
today is like my fcking day after all...my mood is all the way swing n aku tak ada mood langsung...seriouzly....
wat hapen to me,my couzin n all my brother...is all become hire wire..damn...is killing me fight with em...i love them coz they are family ..my real family blood...i didnt mean to break the relation between a sister n brother...i juz do a job as a big sis...is not i scared get the blame..seeing both of u like that realli dissapoin me..n guess wat?? that is my first time yelling at my couzin so call my makcik...im sorie.. i know ur feeling couzin being USE!n is break my heart coz the person who use u is my belove fren..realli break my heart...i keeping quiet all the way hoping that u guyz use ur brain n tink but end up wat the fcuk...u make my cousin suffer...n that's my cousin...damn it..i realli dissapoint n piss off...wat happening here...am i here to be blame again???
to my dearest boi...i not angry with u..u r not to be blame about yesterday k...but wat happen boi i get to know abt u taking that stuff..y?? haizz...wat happen to all the person i love....
my relationsip with mum realli cannot make it...my feeling?? haizz...i know how u feel mother but my feeling??who cares no one...every singal day u say im a liar...when i tel the truft u use all the wordz juz to make myslf to lie to u again...
my real father gone case...realli gone case..i juz wonder y should i be a daughter to a man name AZIZ...
school??sux..family have been saying n focing me...damn it...i juz cant!! try try!! that's all words by them TRY...realli damn it..i keep failing n failing...the feeling damn sux...ask to school money i juz feel like a peminta sedekah...
my ex...k bump into su just now?? y u not talking to me? i can feel that u avoid taking to me?? i know u still angry with me...every ting have been clear but i know u still can feel the pain..im sorie i didnt mean at all..realli...it break my heart seeing u this way...i treasure her as a buddy who r there when i need help n i wont forget that even u hate me...
i just feel like crying rite now coz all combo prob in my mind..i need my hubby to be with me in my side rite now but i cant be selfish to take him away from her friend who want her to enjoy with em....
shit shit..the feeling soo shit....im crying now like wat the hell rite...
im dammmmmmmmmmmm tired...i juz need to cry...apologize if im being rude to anyone...
peace
