GOOD MORNING!!cey cey..wake up soo damn early yee!!!...hmmm...
yesterday, finish work at 5 than go karoake session wif my darling mau dua org, mcm sweet gitu kan...ajak mel n wan dorg tak leh make it...tanx eh mau kasi wan nyanyi lagu wan tak perna nyanyi...
After that i go to wan void deck wif mau kat boon keng wif mau,she have some family prob...mel join us...she bring food for us....realli they make me not left out..im soo happy...mel dance like a bapok make me laugh till i cry...hahahhaha...sundal!!
tue ni they have pit..they us me along to ton...gee..seram dgn bdak tua2...hahhahhahahaha.....
2dy play netball kat kallang stadium..yes yes yes!!
k i want to sleep again now...terbgn pasal nana kol me..haiyooo...
kk love u all pipz...
peace
Time: 7:18 AM .
Sunday, December 28, 2008
k im home...dah mandi...aku seriouzly damn freaking realli soooo sooo penat..yesterday 1 whole night tak tido...mata dah mcm mak panda...today soo damn gerek wif my gang...they make my day..oppz sorie tertido kat pool..penat sgt arh...tomorow morning shift again..than treat mau pi karoake..aku dah janji nak treat..ada rezeki sikit n aku tak nak mukir janji..soo ya she also been helping me alot yaw...aku mampu belanja satu org jek..haha..my pay like damn piss me off..k i settle all my dept n a bit of my bill..haizzz...wat to do kan....kk tanx ppl for lending me that time when i need yeah pay u guyz back..no worriez ait....
sorrie to those who call me juz now i need to cut short..my batt left 1 bar...been talking to her on fon after my work untill i reach marina...yesterday forget to charge my fon...haizz...
k i want to sleep...tomorow 9-5..arhhhh..tired..im soo tired today...1st time i say im sleepy...
btw to someone, nak tag plz use real name...k dah..malas bbol byk
kk peace yaw
Time: 12:08 AM .
Saturday, December 27, 2008
heyaa!! damn my mata makin rabak k buat aku demam laah kan...sok macam mana nak work ni?? pagi laak tu....k nvm dok umah otak aku lagy sot pikiran pasal dia...tadi at toilet ada byk blood tau...aku punya terkejot...i go out the toilet aku tanya laah kan mak aku..she said my dad blood..kaki dia...seriouzly soo bad...wah!!1st time aku risau k..aku pi amik ubt2 tertentu kasi mak aku...my mum saw my eyez than dia kata..."korg suka sasahkan aku"...hati aku terus berkecai sey...dah lah dektu buat aku skg mak aku laak...i dont ask anyone help k..aku sakit aku tak mintak pi doc per...nenek aku pulak at my uncle house..i realli need someone to tok too..mau kol me...i tok to her than i feel better now...she make me laugh wif ani n ana story...siak arh mau...mau tanx alot:)
esok aku keja kul 8pagi-3ptg...than tgk laah keadaan...mata aku dok...
"senang sey u ckp..jgn nagiz..tapi u perna tak pikir kejap perasaan i..kalau u tak dpt terima i kenapa bohong i sey...asal sey u...asal u happy tgk my life merana...u tipu i bulat2 sey...asal sey asal sey....i tink seeing me down will make u happy kan..k syg i will that happen jadi puas hati u...kalau u sayang sgt bini u jgn buat i mcm ni...i pon ada perasaan...u n her jek ada perasaam....tapi i mcm mana...i promise will make u happy my dear azaq if that make u puas n make u happy...hope ur love story u n anis will kekal atas kehancuran hati org lain.....u realli kill me azaq...."
kk ppl let me terus terang....nak tahu kenapa aku break ngan azaq pasal diri aku
WHEN AKU 1ST MEET DIA AKU BOHONG DIA..BILA DAH METAIR DGN DIA AKU ASIK TIPU DIA AJEK..ITU YG BUAT DIA RASA AKU TAK IKHLAS DGN DIA...K TAPI LET MAKE THIS CLEAR AKU TAK PERNA TIPU DIA MAIN BELAKANG DIA K...MMG AKU CONTACT SU EX AKU..TAPI SETAKAT PINJAM DUIT DIA...ITU JEK!! NOT MORE...MMG AKU PENIPU...TAPI AKU TAK PERNA TIPU YG AKU IKHLAS SYG DIA...AKU DAH JUJUR SEMUA DEKAT DIA N AKU DAH BLG SEMUA REASON AKU BUT STILL KENAPA AKU KENA MERANA LAGY...MMG AKU TAK PERNA PHM DIA,ANIZ TAKE 1 WEEK TO AMIK HATI DIA TAPI AKU SI BODOH NI 3 BULAN PON TAK BOLEH AMIK HATI DIA..AKU MMG DASAR BODOH NAK MAMPOZ....ARHHHHHHHHHHHH....
i love her sey korg sgt2...killing me each day...everithing remind me of her..ya itz true aku mmg nk dia alik..tapi aku tak mampu amik hati dia...ya allah wat into me...aku bukan nak mintak simpati juz kenapa aku dibuat mcm ni...i juz cant stop cryinggggggggg againnnnnnnn....u say start a freah as fwen but u lieeeeeeeeeee!! kenapa?? u tahu sakitttt...i juz cant pull myself together right now..i will say this again if tgk i jatoh n suffer boleh tebuz alik semua salah i kat u,boleh buat u happy..i will do it....
tanx azaq selama 3 bulan u buat i kenal erti sayang dan u sedarkan i...utk terakhir kali aku nak ckp i love u yes i do n it is not a lie since from the start..i love n care for u alot...pray for happiness...
plzz ppl dont tag me...i love her is my business...i hurt i wont bother anyone of u anymore...this is my blog is wat i want to say..i love u alootz..soo dont tag...im too weak arh...
peace
Time: 1:12 AM .
Friday, December 26, 2008
10.17pm...kk ni i juz wake up k...damn aku mimpi ular laah sey....my eyez??feel a bit better...mesti baik sebelum esok coz im working morning laah sey...byknyer aku nyer sey...btw i dissapoited in u...u lied!! u ask me not too but u lied...seriouzly u juz playing wif me ait...i dont know watz ur motive...1st u blame me for everything now u want to blame me again...haizz...this is wat u say start a fresh as a frend no more lie..but u lying azaq...
k ppl i will update wat hapen kat play semlm k after i bath....hey im soo hungry but no mood to eat...too much tinking in my head...k takpe boleh kurus jadi tak ada org kutuk...kk crap..im toking rubbish now...
after i wake up i realise i should meet su today to give her stuff rite...i totally forget..clean forget...apologize yaw...will meet u after my work tomorow to pass the stuff...seriouzly i forget...
k jap before pape...i want to share n joy n sadness..my joy i got a letter..went i read it im happy coz itz my 1st step of coming out from my darkness..about the letter??nahhh i wont say untill itz happen n confirm...i sad coz the person who promise to be by my side after i find myself lying to me n i cant find her coz she confuse...how i wish i can share this joy wif u but y should u hurt n dissapoit me...i tink u lum puas sakitkan hati ini kan....
kk lagi aku nagiz...dah laah bosan arh nak mandi....
peace
Time: 10:16 PM .
kk ppl im updating my blog again....well NO aku bukan aru bgn..aku tak leh tido my hp keep ringing..diff2 ppl ask to lpk but i juz have no mood arh to ans..sorry guyz..my eyes damn pain sey..dah mcm panda k...i forcing myself to sit infront the comp rite now...my abg keep nag n nag...plzz stop nagging can...bingit arh bro..but tanx for ur shoulder bro,boleh harap jugak bila aku nak cry on...u know y i cry he play this song meraung than suddenly i break down n cry...u must c his face when suddenly i cry like no one business...he tod coz he nag i cry..than i sit n tell him everithing no more liez..he said " dah dah gemuk tak paya nagiz mcm pompan sewel bute jugak mata idah"...byk2 he said that lagy aku nagiz...tapi takpe tanx for ur shoulder yg tak seberapa yeeer...
ya i know ur blog is juz a blog...but u stop n tink ur blog have hurt me again...wat r u trying to do...u trying to kill me again is it??1st u said that u love me than now u say u cant forget ur wife n ur feeling towars me mayb juz a care,u also confuse about ur feeling...plzz i also have feeling...y should u do this to me again...wat am i to u sey...u say to start afresh as a fwen but u lie to me n im not lying to u animore...my heart hurts alotz..do u happy to c me in this state?? im a human being plzz dont make me like a human who dont have feeling....that night i tot after i tok to u everything is clear but y u this to me...u know i juz cant stop crying rite now...u know that..have u ever think about my feeling...wat u care is ur feeling...sakit sakit sakit....
AZAQ KAU TAK AKU SAYANG KO SANGAT KENAPA KAU BUAT AKU MACAM NI KENAPA AZAQ!!!
Time: 5:24 PM .
k ppl...im back home..7am sharp after ton after my night life at play...i juz have no mood to update wat hapen in play ait....will update later2 part....
i juz cant go n sleep k...i go this person blog..shit!! i hate going ur blog...y should my tears rollin down again...y should it...pain so damn pain....i should'nt go ur blog...arhhh!!im confuse!!! damn the pain came back...y? y? n y?..i juz want to keep it to myself coz who am i to u now rite..juz a frend..i hate this damn weired feeling...i hate crying..............i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!y should again u hurt the feeling..................................!!!!
plzzz god tell me y ppl alwayz make me confuse.....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
my eye is pain after infection from my conta lence..than now im crying.....my eyez n heart hurt alotzzzzzzzz nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz wat actuali happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y should that happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate....................................
k ppl i juz cant sleep ait this is some pix i edit ait..i juz miss her soo much..haiz..miss hugging her in my arm...damn!!...wat into me?? well ppl wont understand how the feeling is...yeah we have done mistake..me n her....itz hurt to recall all back but i juz cant turn back time...love for me to her is hard for me to xplain..yeah i hate her but my love is damn strong for her that i cant bring myself to hate but it juz make me miss her that much....no matter how stupid ppl ting is all about feeling...i guess,ppl out there have that feeling before rite??...only one word i love her still..yes i do...!!
to my dearest boi...plzz dont hurt urself..i know u love her..but dont hurt urself..i been tru in ur position...well when we love that person so much we intent to do stupid stuff to let all the anger out...ive learn one ting is only make u suffer dear...juz cry out loud it will make u feel east...if u love her have fate in her k...juz one word be strong n fight for ur love onez not by doing stupid stuff..love is wonderful but love also can be ur murderer...juz be strong:)
to my dearest yaya n ree..i love u both...no fighthing plzz..we know each other not long but i guess we have cry n laugh together..juz dont make it stop...i love u guyz n i do but itz hurt to c u guyz fighting....everione not perfect..juz one word from eme..forgive n forget dear darling....
i would like to shout out loud here to all my dearest fwen or should i call dearest family..tanx for being there when i need u guyz...all the wordz n encouragement...god have meet me with all wonderful ppl like u guyz..well guyz 1 promise from me i wont betray the friendship...u r all there when im sad n happy..i love u guyz..i use to ting i have no family but god have show me that i have a big family that i have to tresure...i love u guyz..yes i do!!
Shes starin at me I’m sittin wonderin wat shes thinkin. Nobodies talkin Cause talkin just turns into screamin. And now it’s I’m yellin over her She yellin over me. All that means Is neither of us is listening. and wats even worse That we don’t even remember why were fighting.
peace....5.26am...
Time: 3:53 AM .
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
heeeyy..im talking to her right now...tapi dia tertido...hembusan nafas nyer buat aku menitis air mata ku...hati berkata kenapa harus kita berakhir bergini..haizzz..i put the fon n cry out loud...i juz cant lie that i still love her soo much even hati aku masih sakit...im happy with myself now but i lost part of me...
Tomorrow...25 dec...haiz...i use to look forward every 25th but now every 25th will alwayz make me sad n remind me of u...16 aug,masih segar dlm ingatan aku..pertama kali tatap wajahnya dan pertama kali aku berbohong pada nya..25 aug ciuman pertama dan hati ku ini hanya miliknya tapi ya berakhir tanpa aku meminta...sesungguhya hati ini pedih atas ungkapan akhir mu tetapi aku tidak mampu berbohong yg aku masih mencintai mu...tiada barisan ayat harus aku tulis mengapa aku masih menyintai mu..akan ku kunci semua itu dalam2...
this song is for u sayang khas dari hati ini....i juz miss u...
YES PPL I JUZ CANT LIE TO MYSLEF I STILL LOVE AZAQ!! Y SHOULD YOU LEAVE ME!!U KNOW THAT I LOVE U THAT MUCH!! Y SHOULD U TINK THAT I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU...I ALWAYZ CARE FOR U TILL NOW!! Y SHOULD U TINK IM NOT SINCERE WITH U...COZ OF MY LIE?? I LOVE U..THAT I NEVER LIE EVEN FROM THE START Y SHOULD YOU Y SHOULD U Y SHOULD U LEAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ME...... OHHH GOSH IM CRYING...DO U KNOW HOW MUCH I MISH U ..OHH GOD TABAHKAN DIRI INI UTK HADAPI INI SEMUA....KENAPA AKU HARUS KEHILANGAN DIA...SAYANG U WILL ALWAYZ BE MY SAYANG EVEN U LEAVE ME...I JUZ CANT LIE ANYMORE
im tired i need a sleep..now 4.50am
peace
Time: 1:45 AM .
hey nak share jek apa aku tgh buat skg...well im watching shahadat cinta at http://www.dennyshotspot.com/
cerita tentang cinta terhadap agama n cinta terhadap manusia...hey guess wat aku rasa tersentuh when i watch this show..suddenly shead me to tears...i mish my grandpa suddenly....
kk untill then i update more ya nak keep on watching till the end...btw dennyshotspot u can watch indo,bolly,holly movie...juz to share wif u guyz...till then yaw...
peace
Time: 12:23 AM .
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Good evening ppl....i juz woke up...i have a bad headace suddenly today when i wake up in the morning...i have a nab,nenek kejotkan pasal dah prayer time...i wake up and wash up...tak leh pray red light daah..i feel better now after a long nap..sorrie ppl nvr reply ur msg...tak dgr hp n tak larat gilaaa...haiyoo...
i juz tak tau apa aku nyer salah..my mum nvr tok wif me...she accuse me wat i nvr did...haiz..i juz dont bother to fight after all end up it only hurt me..i know myslef...y alwayz i get the blame...
yesterday i have long tok wif her...apa aku rasa?? happy,takot,risau n all feeling campur adok arh..entahlaa...haizz..i realli dissapoited when i get to know the truft..haizz..if ur fwen tink that i dont care about u, up to u n them i know myself...from the start i tak tau show u much i do love u that much i juz want u but end up it turn out this way...i dont blame anyone..i juz blame myself...mayb right i juz dont know how to take care of u...if my past hurting u, i dont blame u...how i do care n love u biarlah i juz keep it deep down in my heart...wat happen next aku serahkan pada takdir...i juz to scared to wish for more n hope for more...i dont want to fall n get hurt if wat i wish to turn out to b lain...the feeling still the same from the start for u...
peace...
Time: 7:06 PM .
Sunday, December 21, 2008
selamaaaaaat ptg.....kk ayu,nidah and ernie maafkan saya pasal sudah terlambat yeeer..hehe..sorie sorie aku aru bgn sey ni..i know janji kul 1 kan kan...i realli tired lagipon semlm alih2 emo pasal tak leh tido pasal benda bodoh tak dpt faedah...hehehe...maaf yeeer..ampun kan patik!! kita meet kat stadium jek nanto tgk bola....mampoz aku kena maki ngan budak2 hari ni....
got msg from nana...kena marah lagy coz of my previous entry...tahu laah..saper nak mengharap kan lagy cuma luahkan apa kat dalam hati jek...alaa nagiz normal laah ubat dok ubat...tak pasal2 dpt maki free...hahaha...
muni semlm byk ko punya aku toggok vodka...aku mmg msg ko pukul 4.30pagi bukan mimpi laaah...aku kat umah toggok vodka otak ko...aku msg ko pasal alih2 muka ko jelma arh...ptg karang kol u k....
kk aku nak mandi,makan n kejotttt lahabau hazirah... btw no more lies from me saper rasa aku bohong up to u...ckp tak guna kan kan kan...well aku suka org2 yg suka rasa2...kk aku dah mepek..yakdish yakdish.....
peace....
Time: 2:00 PM .
kk ppl im back home from work freaking tired...i keep on singing at work untill my boss naik bingit..aku nyanyi pasal aku happy....tak bedek!! aku happy realli happy after being sooo sad for this past few weekz..lama sey tak rasa happy...
sebelum tu aku nak share sikit arh...u know wat make me strong..after i hear this song..tahu tak actualli kan song is not only song, kalau ko paham lyric itz song it can be meaningful to u tau...seriouzly...kk this is part of the lyric title THIS IS ME
I Always been the kind of girl that hid my face So afraid to tell the world of what I’ve got to say But I have this dream right inside of me I’m gonna let it show It’s time To let you know, to let you know
This is real, this is me I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now Gonna let the light, shine on me Now I found, who I am There’s no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me
Do you know what it’s like to feel so in the dark To dream about a life where you’re the shining star Even though it’s seems Like it’s to far away I have to believe by myself, it’s the only way
This is real, this is me I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now Gonna let the light Shine on me! Now, I found, who I am There’s no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me…
i dont give a damn anymore about my past history n stupid old love story...it will alwayz make me sad...even ppl say they undersatnd u but actualli u urself understand how u feel...
let me reveal everyting here at my blog...this is my blog my say...
since kecik aku dahagakan kasih sayang seorg mak n bapak...org2 selalu pijak kepala aku since aku kecik tak kira kawan atau lawan...itu ygi buat aku jadi pendedam...aku tipu org2 yg aku rasa patut kena tipu...tapi kadang2 aku tipu ada sebab tapi end up aku jugak disalahkan....sampai aku bayangkan org yg tak perna wujud...mmg org pikir aku gila tapi ini semua pasal manusia petingkan diri dan kebahagiaan dorg sendiri..tidak ada org tahu dari mulut aku semua sejarah aku tapi cuma ada seorg insan yg aku cintai sampai skg tapi dia milik org lain skg dan jugak dari awal...aku tahu aku byk bohong pada si dia, tapi bohong aku pasal bersebab tapi aku tahu aku tak patut bohong...aku cuba nak berubah utk si dia tapi dia tak kasi masa kat aku...15 tahun aku hidup dgn sejarah aku tak akan dgn sekelip mata aku boleh berubah...aku benci pasal ada perasaan sayang sangat kuat utk dia...sakit dia sampai sakarang...sakit!!!....hingga perna aku doakan keburukan utk si dia ngan sang isteri tapi pasal tak sampai hati dan kuatnya sayang ku padanya aku doakan supaya dia dpt kebahagiaan...setiap mlm sebelum tido muka si dia jelma kat kepala ini sampai tak dpt lelapkan mata..aku amik air sembahyang dan tunaikan sembahyang hajat,dkt sejadah aku nangiz supaya lenyapkan rasa sayang ku pada si dia pasal sakit sungguh hati ini...aku tak berpeluang nak jumpa dia,pasal si dia mmg tak nak jumpa muka ini...apa salah dan dosa aku...lihat si dia bersama isteri n anak aku gembira kerana kau dpt kebahagiaan ko tapi hati ini tak boleh aku nafikah,aku menagiz kesakitan dengan hati remut rendam.....haizz..janji2 mu yg ko perna janji utk buat utk aku masih aku tunggu sampai skg tapi aku rasa si dia pon rasa tak bermakna langsung skg...aku mmg iklas angap mu sebagai sahabat ku kerana aku tak nak jadi idah yg dulu yg pendedam....terus terang aku rindu dengar suara mu n pelukan mu..tapi itu semua bukan milik ku lagi tapi milik insan yg sangat dia sanyangi...air mata aku mengalir lagy skg pedih dia masih sampai skg....sumpah hati ini sakit hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu....mmg betul dgn sembahyang sahaja dpt tenangkan hati ini...cinta manusia hanya sebuah lakonan di dunia ini...
maaf atas luahan hati ku ini pasal aku tak nak jadi pembohong pada org dan pada diri sendiri lagi yg penting aku tak nak jadi pendendam...semoga tuhan akan sentiasa beri ruang utk aku gembira suatu hari nanti....
well ppl in me still stuck wif that person love...well i try to change it the love to be love as a frenz...semoga ko bahagia bersama umie dan anak2 mu....doa ku sentiasa bersama mu...maaf atas kesalahan diri ini selama ini...terima kasih kenalkan diri ini erti percintaan dan kesabaran....dan jugak tidak lupa aku belajar utk tidak sakitkan hati org yg menyayangi kita sepenuh hati pasal sakitnya aku dah rasa...well i tink is karma for me coz aku kecewakan seorg insan yg sangat mencintai ku hingga skg tapi aku tak nak buat silap lagy utk bersamanya pasal dahagakan kasih sayang..tapi aku tak perna menyesal...
ppl dada aku dah sakit i need a sleep...i juz have one wish everytime i wake up from my sleep...i wont say it out biar aku simpan..walaupon wish aku ni kecik tapi cukup utk ubat hati ini...
peace....
Time: 2:50 AM .
Saturday, December 20, 2008
k ppl so far only this 2 pix i can upload..seriouz damn slow laah my comp...
Aku just wake up...penat gilaa laah sey reach home at 4.30am..Bz gilaa kat keja, customer come n go...my supervisor buli aku semlm sey suro mop the floor mentang2 aku dah lama tak keja..hehe...after work nana,cikgu ,atiq n nor fetch me..nana bwk car...kita eat at adamz rd than kita go mustafa...dorg pon asik buli aku sey..dorg kekek2 when aku sing at the car lagu numb coz aku buat lyric sendiri...jahat sey!!dorg kata dorg rindu aku...sooo sweet!!ohh ya dorg kekek bila aku bbol english jugak sey dorg kata dah mcm org batak bbol...hahahha...siak!! skg ni tak tau ker aku dok bbol english step phm tapi berterabuh...hahahha...well well well!! hahahha...we send atiq 1st...aku lompat kat car park mcm pocong si atiq dah takot run all the way naik umah dia...gilaa nyer pompan...heee...
HARI INI AKU AKU KEJA LAGI 5-1AM...waduh2...cari nafkah dok...mcm phm...
ohh ya...utk lul eh..tanx eh aku bangon jek ko msn ngan aku ckp ko mimpi buruk..munkin org ko kenal akan pass away...ko mimpi gigi ko semua bogeh....yakdish!! jgn laah...aku ni aru abiz sad2 ko nak aku sad2 agi...yakdish yakdish!!
utk mau....u kita nyer date jgn lupa k kat cable car on mon....hahahhaah....mau kan date aku sekarang...rosak MOK!!
yeah yeah!! besok pegi gym than swim kat jurong...yeah yeah!!! with who?? ngan ernie sulastri..my date jugak...hahahha....bez bez..lama sey tak swim...dont forget my boya itik k:).....
ohh ya...ibu ask me take o level sey...tapi c 1st how laah kan coz i have my own plan..jgn tanya asal dia suro amik o level...aku pon tak tau...tapi he ask me n fairul pegi amik....nak tau subject apa....malay,eng n math...mati mati!!fairul mak ko mmg nak kita mati..hahahahah...sayang ibu....
kk aku nak siap pegi work work....ohh lupa utk lekok...degil budak satu ni doc kasi mc suro dok umah dia merayap...ni arh dah tua degil...hahaa...juz take care ait lekok....
peace yaw!!
Time: 1:17 PM .
Friday, December 19, 2008
K PPL...NAK UPDATE BENDA JAP SEBELUM AKU PI WORK NI....
KAN AKU DAH LUPA NAK UPDATE ABOUT "GANG FIGHT" KAT DOWNTOWN....STUPID GUYZ PUKUL POMPNA...AYU,SOFI N WATIE KENA PENUMBUK FREE DARI BUDAK2 LELAKI NI...LEBAM MUKA AYU...AKU?? AKU MASIH BOLEH MAKE FUN..KALAU AKU KENA PUKUL, AKU IBARATKAN MUKA DORG SI DIA NANTI DAH LAIN CITA LAK KAN....HAHAHAHA...WELL AKU MAIN LARI2 KAT SITU COZ 10 LELAKI KALAU KENA ROGOL TAK ADA HASIL...HAHAHHA....OHH NAK TAU REASON Y THEY PUKUL US PASAL KAN REALLI A LAME REASON THEY GIVE..SERIOUZ....MALAS NAK CITA...!!TAPI SERIOUZLY BOI CUTE..DAH IKOT END UP CKP " EH AKU TAKOT MAK AKU MASOK AKU KAT PETAPIS"...CIBAI SAK..KITA SEMUA KETAWA NAK TERKENCING.....BTW THIS ALL YP BOIZ REALLI MEPEK K....
YAP YAP...AKU MALAS NAK FALL IN LOVE AGAIN...LOVE SUCKZ...MAKE U SUFFER LIKE HELL K...REALLI LAAH...I DONT BELIEVE THERES LOVE IN THIS WORLD...SELFISH LOVE ADALAH...WELL AFTER MY LOVE STORY AKU N SI DIA REALLI MAKE ME REALISE THAT LOVE CAN MAKE U STUPID PERSON ON EARTH....WELL FUCK LAAH LOVE...PASAL SKG IM STUCK COZ THE FEELING STILL STRONG FOR DIA...WAHDUH!! PAYOH OH...WAN NUR ZAHIDAH BTE AZIZ PLZZ WAKE UP SHE HAVE A LOVELY WIFE N LOVELY DAUGHTHER...YAKDISH YAKDISH....C WAT HAPEN TO ME GILA BAYANG....SAPPPPP!! HAHAHHAHA.....DAMN DAMN!!
KK LAH AKU NAK KEJA...PAYOH ARH CITA PANJANG2.....
PEACE....
Time: 1:35 PM .
k...today im freaking tired k...well kita pi main netball kat kallang...soo gerek k...with kakak SIA..hahah....they r freaking kecoh k.....the soccer player step nak main netball end up it turns to b captain ball...damn i still cant upload gamba....damn damn....k takpe....will try again ait....
to my beloved ayu...tanx ajar aku english..well get free lesson from her...so sweet...will learn from my mistake yaw :) ..... i will call u cikgu ayu k skg...hehe.. study time for me.... siap beli buku english sey aku....
tomorow aku keja k...5-1am...after long break....kinda miss working laaa...
when i listen to this song, it suddenly reminds me of her when i first met her at wedding funtion...hahaha....k tapi we r fwen now.... ahakz...the song kinda childish...muhahaa...k juz listen yaw ppl... kan kan aku dah mish!! yakdish!! hahah...kk peace!!
helooo ppl..seriouzly nak update my blog semlm than tertido suddenly have fever!!...yakdish..wake up soo fresh tapi masih batok2....yesterday tanx fwen make my day.....lup u....
At 2 i go my car prac....soo happy dah lama tak drive than get a change to drive again...weee!! meet up with watie n sofie kat umah sofi watch HEY BABY!! seriouzly the show realli cool yaw....
pegi shisha...with nidah,ayu,boi,mau,sofi,watie n hazi....yeah they make me smile all the way...take pix..k nak upload pix tadi but keep on error so nanti laaah yeee....
Oh yaa ppl....IM SINGAL!!...she want us go separate way.....i respect her keputusan..even the feeling still strong juz that lup cant force kan...btw no one at fault...both of us at fault senang cita ait...well i will treat her as a fwen coz well she have been a great advisor n make me wake up....but up to her kan kan....one nite i have cry all the way when i wake up i juz tell myself that life not end here u still got long way to go:) i juz mish her....btw get well soon k lekok....
Today playing netball at kallang...hehe...netball eh...hahah...kk juz having fun with the rest....
k my step father lost a job again...my mum keep on nag n nag....haiyoo...everyone get scolded including me..the bez daughter after all...hehehe.....my grandma n me make fun of my mum...gerek!! hahaha...end up my mum majok with my nenek..cute laah kan....
well ppl i have enough crying n hurting myself...seriouzly i being sooo stupid.....i juz want smile n make lotz lotz of fwen but NOT LOVER...favour eh sooo penat falling in love...enough sey....
damn my englisg suckz...pada pembaca yg tak phm jgn laah baca yeer..
i luve myself......yakdish!!
sign off
Time: 12:19 PM .
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
kk before aku start my entry sorie if my english or malay berterabuh asalkan korg phm dah cukup..firstly ppl keep asking y i delete all my previous entry well i wanna start all fresh..no lie n all the truft...well ppl let me admit here in my blog all my previous enrty there's are lie but not all k...well i lie coz of a reason...someone give me a wake up call not to lie...well im learning...im lying coz of my history....
im back from cameron sun nite...but sorie to all my fwen who trying to get tru me...sorie i juz no mood to text or ans any call...but hey im back safe but seriouzly kena food poisoning eh...my grandma sick since we in cameron...she cant walk much...her leg realli weak...will update pix about cameron asap k....btw at tuas checkpoint that nite i saw this particular person...well the world realli small when i saw this person...i juz look n smile...
sit at home whole day on mon...seriouzly perut aku sakit semcm...aku tido all the way....tanx hall come down all the way to sengkang to meet me...well yeah im ok but perot prob...will b ok soon i tink....
to that someone....
i realli do mish u soo much...well kat sini aku nak pohon sepuluh jari kalau aku ada buat silap..i dont blame u totaly if u treat me this way...mayb part of it is my fault...i know i being soo annoying,dependent n a lier for u...i dont blame u...i juz blame myself...seriouzly im tanxful coz i get a change to tell u my bad history...even i hoping u give me time to change but end up it turn out this way...mayb itz fated for me dont have a change to get love from anyone...if hearing my name n c my face just mke u shivers to ur spine...i will keep distance from u, i juz dont want coz of me u fall sick again...i juz pray from far hoping u get well soon...no call or msg from u since that nite after the hurting msg...i wait every singal day, im juz hoping get 1 phone call from u..it will juz make me smile...i tak berniat nak buat u in this state...i love u n i do care till now...i juz hate my history coz it make me leave in the dark till now...i've promise u that nite that i will come out from the dark.. like i do promise u but i juz cant tell the time...i tak nak jadi beban bagi u juz dont hate me n plz have fate in me...no one have fate in me i juz hope u do...im sorie for being not a perfect gal for u....i juz hate my past n hate myself....i lup u....im sorie for wat i did.....
i realli need to b alone ppl..sorie didnt reply any of ya msg ait.....will get back to all of u when im feeling better...juz hoping my grandma get well soon..itz hurting c her in this state....i only have u now...my grandma is my everyting....
