+_My sweetestescape_+

2009-05-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

hey im being realli happy girl..being singal and my friend all around me...i miss many of my fwen...sooo many....didi of coz i miss u k n also all my darling fwen...

aku just nak post ni...guess wat?? dunia ni mmg kecik...wasiah?? ring the bell...tak sangka she know me...at last our story is kinda same.. dulu perna fall for someone and at last get hurt...i laugh laah kan coz nasib dia macam aku jugak...well it happen to every gal...i donno that the person kita dulu perna fall kan realli no heart pentingkan diri sendiri and only make us understand his love story or should i put her...i tink my tears all just a waste...thingking back yeah i just waste my time...now i just laugh at myself coz being soo stupid...

btw kat luar sana sape nak kutuk cara aku type persilakan coz this is the way i type...

roger n out

-wan-

2009-05-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

i juz feel soo lost now...entah laah...empty...no happiness at all...no one to turn too...i juz soo empty wat to write in my post today....im juz sooo empty...i think i juz wanna be alone for awhile...i realli dissapointed in myself...mayb this is coz of my own stupidity...

how can i make ppl understand...y ppl juz think about themself...i juz dont understand ppl..

hmmm...gtg

2009-05-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

yeah i will active write in my blog rite...kalau tak SYAFIQAH MEMEKAK!!oopz sorie...

kinda stress day today...have a big fight with him...hey itz kinda weired rite coz aku cry mcm pompan gilaa..hmm..well mayb coz i in love with him already...haiyoo...when he say wanna end this,alamak! mcm terstop sak jantung aku....i juz miss him that much...how i wish i could run to him n knock his head than hug him n shout to him i miss him..yakdish!! plz wake up girl!!...i admit i being sooo degil but i didnt mean any harm...plz plz plz im sooo sorie....wahh falling in love is worse than falling in ur exam...yakdish again to me coz aku tak phm apa aku merepek....!!!ps i juz miss him that much...

my bday coming but no mood to think about it coz....nvm all my wish dah go to tog sampah pon!! haizzz...sooo 7 june plz dont come!!

routine pada hari ini ialah wake up and eat my freaking ubat...seriouzly im sick of it...plz plz plz wan nur zahidah wake up laah dont make the ubat control u...u have to control urself...kalau gini sampai ketualah ko hidup dgn ubat!!! yakdish again to me....

nenek sick...plz get well soon...i lost many ppl i dont wanna loose u....

kk i gtg, im bz doing some stuff right now...till then.....

to azaq....like again...pegi mampoz!!

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-05-10T03:24:00.002+08:00

hello world...long time yaw aku tak write my blog yeeh...bz finding jobz and settle all prob...tanx to my dearest atiq n HIM for being there for me...i juz choose to be quiet latey coz bila aku byk bbol byk lagy org tak suka..sooo being quiet is better rite...hmmm...

HE have being queit lately..i juz dont know watz in his mind...i fell so helplez..haiz...i juz miss the old him, who alwayz being there n make me smile each day..but now he being quiet im juz feel so lonely...i juz miss him soo much...how i wish i can meet him now but wat can i do,he's far away from me...waiting he's msg each day...each and every msg from him will juz make my day....if i done any wrong to you im totaly sorie...i juz can say it out here that i love u.....but.....

HE make me to stand on my feet n make me forget my past...i dont cry anymore abt my past, now thinking about my future ahead....tanx

to azaq if u read this...i juz regrd to know u..seriouzly...u make me n my family suffer...coz of u my grandma have to help me....i juz pray that god will take everything from u...yes!! aku jahat!! aku dah byk mengalah n now u make my grandma suffer...yeah i lie before but ko ingat skg pape jadi kat nenek aku,sampai lobang cacing aku cari ko...i tot u mature enough to think but otak mati..im not being rude but u make me like a stupid ass waiting for ur msg about the stuff...stupid ass...hey u thing u perfect, trust me...u get it wat u have done to me....all ur promises is a crap...nvm tell everyone i am the bad...itz okey for me...aku tak rugi pape laaah....i learn one thing thats life and also learn another thing nvr trust sweet talk ppl....

i miss many ppl rite now...xpecially HIM....i juz have 1 wish on my bday that is be with u on my bday...but dream on laaah kan....haizz...i miss u dear....pray for ur health...

i miss my abg....

to my sis, happy bday...sorie cant attend ur bday party...sicko laah!!ur present utang k...hehe....

peace

-wAN-

2009-04-23T05:22:00.002+08:00

damn it!!! stress gilaaa sak!!! bodo sak aku!! im in a big dept now but i have no saving!!! arhhhh!!! bodo sak aku kasi saving aku dulu kat org yg aku pikir sayanga aku...skg bila aku need help,ilang sak....well i juz cant believe u r like that..damn it!! everiday own ppl money....arhhhh!!! my hosp bill...ubat semua...arhhhhhhhhhh!!! helpppp!!!!!!!!!!! bodoh sak aku !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!arhhh....!!! biar laah skg aku susah,aku pikir dia boleh tolong tapi dia senyap...memba dah ada gaji dok mana nak pandang aku lagy..aku dah teak di perlukan lagy....siaal arh nasib!!!

2009-04-15T01:53:00.001+08:00

k nak update ni jek....IM DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN BROKEEEEEEEEEE!!! MY SAVINGGGGGGGGG TAKDER....STUPID OF MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......MY HOSP BILL N MY DAD HOSP BILL...SERIOUZLY I CAN CRY K RIGHT NOW.......ISSSSSSSSSSHHHHH!!!

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-12T21:24:00.005+08:00

hey world...yesterday movida with the singal girl..tanx kakak for the belanja yeeer...for everithing...im kinda no in mood to have fun..hmmm...the place remind me of the past..i juz hate..suddenly i feel soo angry!! u say i change heart cpt...wat the hell...!! u have ur hapiness with ur child n ur 2nd family n also adik kesayangan..semoga ko happy with wat have now...to think about u make me cry n hate myself coz fall in love with you so much...i juz hate that.....i have nothing now...

my dear tanx for everything...u make me smile and feel the love..even u are far but near to my heart...u make me sleep in peace now..tanx for the care that you give me...soo sweet..i mish u dear,how i wish i can hug u n u kiss my forehead...meeting u are out of my xpctation...i juz fall for you coz the love u gave me....u make me stand again after i lost in my love story to the person i love with all my heart before...u make me strong....i juz want to be with u....i love u sayang!!

wat i wish now..to c her suffer can???i juz donno y my heart hate him n her soo much...both of them kill me realli am....

i out of singapore again this week....juz want to have peace of mind and get the ans to all my question..hmmm...

to my dear mau...aku dah agap ko like my own adik...mau,tak mau sad k...i know how u feel coz i been in ur state before..i wont force or ask u to do as wat i say..juz follow ur heart...soner of later u will understand...i love u maurisha!!

my hosp bill n my father hosp bill...pity my mum...mama sorie i cant help..all my saving dah pinish...n the bez part i have no job now..i been termoinate...maybe bukan rezeki aku...after all this happen i know who reaLLI fwen or who juz a poser who step care...i dont need a poser k....

i feel like crying now with all this ard me...all prob...but hey ive to be strong..takpe biar dorg happy skg,tuhan maha adil...semoga dorg akan rasa betapa sakitnye hati ni....aku benci sangat teramat..should i juz say dunia akhirat aku tak akan maafkan both of them..they kill my heart!!!

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-11T16:28:00.002+08:00

helooo world...wat the fcuk kan...hahahha....nak update lincah ni nak go out date with ayu...hahahha...tiba2 ajak pi tgk wayang both of us....gilaa kan budak ni...k but hey free apa lagi pegi jek laah...2dy not b coming home,meeting mau for late nite outing...mau i hope u like the gift...tu sahaja yg mampu ku beri...cey!! cey!!

sis atiq in town man!! yippeee!!!

my bez fwen saw this couple at newton like last couple of week...hahahah.... siak arh bez fwen buat lawak kat couple ni..loving couple dok..tak leh angkat!! aku dont give damn for them oand him or should i say her....wat ever laah kan...im sick n tired of their story..i hate till mati arh n should i say for me they are monster...lame sak!!!

i tot im a lier but guess wat there r still a big fat lier outside think they are angle...benci dok!!!pape laaah kan....

im broke like hell k....sape nak ajak aku keluar harap maklum aku broke....

i love my gf n i love him.....:)

peace

-wAN-

2009-04-09T05:40:00.002+08:00

hey like fcuk sak...azaq penipu...u make me as if all i in the wrong...u still cheat me for them...u know wat azaq!! go to hell with you....aku halal kan aper aku kasi ko laah tapi aku ingat sampai mati ko dah buat eh!! semoga ko happy with the love onez eh...cuma ingat satu laah zaq...ko tak akan selalu dapat aper ko inginkan!!! if ko terlanggar kat jalan raya i juz will c and walk off coz i realli hate u till death arh gang...duit ko tanam buat family dorg sua...aku tak nak pape,aku nak nenek aku nyer benda jek....

i juz feel soo piss of with pompan bernama siti zaiton....tanx eh!!

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

helloooo world.....!! ahakz...today my dad going for OP..alhamdulillaah...but still in icu beb...pray hard for him to get well soon...my family still need him...even he juz my step dad,yeah i do love him...:)

yesterday kinda my worse day k..get scolded by him, end up nearly he want to leave me alone...guess wat i cry coz scared loosing him...well guess i fall for him yaa...hmmm...itz my salah sey,make him angry...hmmm...i miss him soo much sey n im sorie for all wat i have done....

to zack...im sorie i nvr reply or ans ur kol..im juz sooo scared of u....realli do...

tanx atiq for late nite msg...syg ko laah bidadari...

finding job sey...haiyooo....

ppl i want to have gucci perfume...saper sudi belikan aku...plzzz...im broke...huhuhu..tak tau malu sey aku...tapi kalau korg belikan semoga mura rezeki korg....hehehhe

i miss all my gf....

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-05T00:57:00.002+08:00

my body kinda weak this few dayz yaw...but hey but im strong enough coz all the support from by dearest fwen n u my dearest prince...tanx for making me happy guyz everyday singal day...well yeah im kinda worie about my dad but hey i know he strong...i will always pray for his health.....

My dad will going for OP on mon...

conting the days to meet u...u have change me alot...u do not me well i mean tak kenal me byk..but hey u have change me alot...im soo happy to get know you but....when i meet u up i will tell everything to you...but i juz need the trust from you...

to all my dearest fwen who visit my dad..tanx alot guyz...i love u guyz...

i miss my classmate...girlfwen i miss u guyz n also my boyfwen..miss the laughther n the hug guyz...meet up soon yaw...

k toddler...gtg...

love

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-04T03:07:00.002+08:00

hey ppl...my dad condition is worsen...i juz hope nothing will hapen to him...he might me smiling but hey i know he's in pain...i pity my both adik n my mum....i juz cant imagine wat will happen if anything hapen to him....

tanx my belove fwen who being there for me 2dy...realli im soo pleased to have you guyz by my side...

i juz feel soo lost...damn lost...juz donno wat im thinking...haiz..im soooo blank....

gtg...im in pain!!

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-04-02T23:20:00.004+08:00

hey ppl sorie for my blog jadi hire wire yee..will do it properly...seriouzly my head gone blank..sorrie didint update for ages...arhhhh!!wat new?? well im singal again like for real...i have enough of him...im just scared of seeing him again,realli scared....it such a bad dream for me....haizzz...fail again falling in love...i juz dont understand y i have to get hurt again n again....wat i've done wrong???

To you...i didnt xpect our love story end this way...my love is realli juz for you but u have hurt me...my love juz turn to be hate...u hurt me soo deeply...im juz too tired of crying every singal day...if ppl ask if i still love you..my ans will be NO...i never want to c you again...our memories ive throw far away...

my life is full of problem...again n again...well im just too sick to think..i might me laughing n smiling every singal day but deep down in my heart im crying....im just too weak...my step dad now in icu got heart attack...ohh god wat happening to my family..even he's my step dad, he have take care of me...not like my real dad...should i still call him dad...

Khairul shafiq b mohd taib...tanx for making me smile each day...im just yearning to meet you...our meet tak xpexted langsung....u have make me smile everyday...how i wish u can make me happy everyday...u r far away from me but i just donno i have kinda weired feeling for u...im sure u understand wat i mean..tanx for being there when im realli down...i wanna cry on ur shoulder but hey u r not mine...can i say i fall for you...u make me happy each day,u make me forget all the pain....tanx alotz

ppl...can my life story end up to be like cinderella..be happy with the prince of her heart in the end...i juz wanna find someone who realli love n care for me...is that soo much i ask for...??i dont need money or wat so ever...i juz need the care n love...well mayb i nvr get love from my dad....i juz want to be happy with my prince...

hey u botak..nak jadi my prince...:)

hey i yearning to have 12 white roses.....hehehe

sorrie ppl i being soo emo...well im juz soo down n yes im sick..so sick...

roger n out

-wAN-

will update n fix my blog real soon...love

roger n out

-wAN-

2009-03-16T05:18:00.002+08:00

im off to a trip that i also dont know when i will be back home..i juz feel wanna be alone...fwen dont worie i b okey...im going miss every singal one of u...now im typing before i board the bus...tanx everyone for being there when i realli need u guyz...i hope when i back i be back to the old me....

love all my gf n my sec family....take care all..gtg

peace

2009-03-03T01:31:00.001+08:00

hey im sorie to my deraest ree coz ddnt pick up ur kol..i juz need to be alone...but hey im kinda ok...hey to all my gf i quiting skool...i cant grad wif u guyz...im sorrie..im going mish everi singal one of u...juz dont forget me yah, even i not schooling anymore plzz dont lost contact wif me yaw...i love u guyz....

sign off

2009-03-02T13:01:00.002+08:00

Morning ppl...i mean afternoon...k i juz woke up k...wahhh!! have a fight with him yesterday...yeah everyone is kinda boring with my attitude..god plzz let me handle all this prob in hand..realli realli i need fwen make me smile again...hey i mish al my fwen badly soo badly...i mish my gf in ite simie...i mish mau..i mish my gundu fwen...i mish hana n sha...i mish everione that alwayz be my side this all while...sitting at home n day dreaming realli make me wake up...juz that now i realli not ready to go school coz school suckx...i wanna work n earn to help support my family...god i juz need happiness n i need to be strong to face everything in this world..i juz dont wanna sit n cry all day long...i cant wake for check up on this thurz i hope my life will change everithing will change..i realli wanna to change my life stlye....

peace

2009-03-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

dah lama aku tak write my blog due to my comp break down but now i will write often...Lately aku feel realli down with many tingy...dah few dayz i sit at home..my family problem havent settle yet...every night i cry out loud alone in my room...cry over my life...i juz cant take it anymore..i run from everione...i juz need to be alone..my life is soo empty...no one will understand i feel...i choose to be queit coz no use coz end up will get the blame...mama im sorie wat have hapen,i didnt mean to make ur life to end this way..i love u but i juz miss the old time..i dont blame her at all,i juz blame myself...how i wish i can be strong like before but end up i juz cant take it anymore..i juz cant smile or laugh now..i juz cry n cry each day...

to my dearest azaq..i know u wont read my entry coz now u bz with ur work..im sorie coz u have me as ur girlfriend who cant give you anything..i waited u every nite for ur kol,everinite...im tired syg...i juz miss u soo much,do u know that...i didnt mean to menyusahkan u..am i important to ur life??i realli need you in my side rite now but i understand u bz with ur work...everyday i miss u i will read the letter u gave me...y should we be together...i rather suffer my ownself than make u suffer too...deep down i love you much..when u ask me y i love u that much i juz cant ans...i rather keep quiet now...i mish u soo bad but i dah tak paksa or fight with you..im juz tired n im realli sick...do take care of urself...i love u syg

im feel soo lonely..realli lonely...haizz...i too weak to face wih my problem...i not strong enough to face it anymore...god only knowz how hurt i am now...

i dont need anyone to understand my situation coz i dont want to bother anyone...i juz feel soo lonely...

sign off

2009-02-24T13:45:00.002+08:00

hey...sorie for not updating my blog lately coz my comp break down at my house..shit!!i feeling soo sick lately n feel soo lonely..i have fwen around me but still i kinda lonely..

i feel like i will be a quiet wan again...i juz donno till when he wanna keep it from me...itz hurting n if i ask im surely get the blame back...

tomorrow my 6mth with him...how is turn out i juz dont wanna say....im tired...

kk gtg...killing me every sec'

2009-02-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

i kinda break down this few dayz..many thing playing in my mind...haizz...juz now prac is kinda sux...i do soo damn sux k...aku tak leh focus langsung realli...waste of my money...

well is it i too afraid or juz im juz too weak..am i too naif???haizz...i juz pray to god for the answer to all my question...i miss him soo much lately, he started working at jurong yesterday...well again i have to tolerate with his work time..i dont mind juz that im too scared... will i lost him again??i love him soo much yes i do alotz

well this all fated for me...aku terima dgn pasrah...

peace

2009-02-09T09:03:00.002+08:00

eh to ppl who tag me...seriouzly aku tau ko kenal aku gila n we use to rapat coz u know everithing....i dont fight but juz tel me who r u...ya i know i go back with zack that make u angry..kalau korg dua my friend will alwayz stand by my side all the way bukan kutuk aku itu ini like i use to stand all the way on my friend side even kena pulau...salah ker aku? patah alik dgn zack..walaupon zack buat aku macam taik in future pon itz between me n him...i juz need korg nye understanding...about my ex su?? yaaa korg nak ckp aku busted or soo wat ever asalkan aku tak jadi hypo aku dah bilang dia everithing...n aku dah dpt balasan bila dulu zack tingalkan aku...not everyone is perfect k even the both of u...tolonglah kenapa nak involvekan maruah org lain...mcm mana pon u maruah peribadi org....try kalau maruah ko org semua tahu...eh eh guna otak pikir laaah...kalau bingit pon apa hak korg ckp pasal maruah org kat tag, everione like is reading....guna otak jek aku ckp...the thing is korg ngan bingit wth aku asal involve kan maruah org lain..korg dah melampau..plz the both taggers juz tell ur real name arh.....

2009-02-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

k ppl nvr update like sooo long yeeeh...hey guess wat some ppl juz lie to about sometingy...they say they are TTM n guess wat actualli they are attach n have broke up..amazing rite!! a big lie after all...well juz dont bother...

i fight with my mum again....arhhhh!!! yeah i love her but y cant they juz cant understand....

bez friend??buddy??good friend??? juz piss off with this...seriouzly...y?? my soo call bez friend juz playing behind my back...y should this happen...i juz need u guyz to understand like i understand u guyz before..is break my heart when i get to know...my own friend...haizz...realli realli i love u guyz but u chose to b good me front but wat hapen in the back...arhhh!!!

thanx to this particular person or should i call atiqah...tanx for the ear to listen..all the secret we share one whole nite...hey u juz make me cry when it remind me wat hapen that day...i trust u that's y i told u...keep it to u yeah...soo tresure it alot sey...that's wat i want heart to heart tok but i should i wish is her but hey wake up she's bz...sooo rite now like atiq say sabar...hmmmm...

my hubby...i in love with him sooo much...yes i do!!...im sorie if i make u think that i making u like a dog...dont understand u...im SORRI...i dont mean so...i juz need to tok to u this moment but hey i should understand u have many thingy to settle..im sorie not to b a good partner to u...actuali know wat?? i miss u...yeah we meet up like can say everyday...but i juz miss the hug n kisses...is not that i desprate..hahaa...i juz miss the warmness n ur touch..well..forget it ....wat can i say..i love u now tomorow n everyday......i think i should try to be understandin yeah...i juz scared actuali..that i will not write here coz is personal..i juz the nite 1 day juz to be with with u n tok...well i think it soo much i ask for...soriee again...i want this relationship to work...im happy with u juz that plzzz forget ur past...realli if u past come again in ur life plzz dont hurt me again...i know i kurang in many way but like u know i do anythig for u....i juz pray...

im broke im broke im broke...arhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! many thingy in my head i have to settle..money?? know wat?? forget it...sakit hati arh....wat i know i juz waiting to get that thing coz i yearning for that thing since last mth.....nak cry arh...hehe..

dah laah nak tido dah tak kuasa..so i will be the old me...quiet...so when need me anyone kol yeah...i juz will be the old me....i will not bother anyone life anymore...i juz piss off n guess wat is open my eyes when all this hapen...

ooooh yah yah...tak per tulis sok..kepla ku berat nak mampoz...

k berambus....

2009-01-29T00:43:00.002+08:00

today is like my fcking day after all...my mood is all the way swing n aku tak ada mood langsung...seriouzly....

wat hapen to me,my couzin n all my brother...is all become hire wire..damn...is killing me fight with em...i love them coz they are family ..my real family blood...i didnt mean to break the relation between a sister n brother...i juz do a job as a big sis...is not i scared get the blame..seeing both of u like that realli dissapoin me..n guess wat?? that is my first time yelling at my couzin so call my makcik...im sorie.. i know ur feeling couzin being USE!n is break my heart coz the person who use u is my belove fren..realli break my heart...i keeping quiet all the way hoping that u guyz use ur brain n tink but end up wat the fcuk...u make my cousin suffer...n that's my cousin...damn it..i realli dissapoint n piss off...wat happening here...am i here to be blame again???

to my dearest boi...i not angry with u..u r not to be blame about yesterday k...but wat happen boi i get to know abt u taking that stuff..y?? haizz...wat happen to all the person i love....

my relationsip with mum realli cannot make it...my feeling?? haizz...i know how u feel mother but my feeling??who cares no one...every singal day u say im a liar...when i tel the truft u use all the wordz juz to make myslf to lie to u again...

my real father gone case...realli gone case..i juz wonder y should i be a daughter to a man name AZIZ...

school??sux..family have been saying n focing me...damn it...i juz cant!! try try!! that's all words by them TRY...realli damn it..i keep failing n failing...the feeling damn sux...ask to school money i juz feel like a peminta sedekah...

my ex...k bump into su just now?? y u not talking to me? i can feel that u avoid taking to me?? i know u still angry with me...every ting have been clear but i know u still can feel the pain..im sorie i didnt mean at all..realli...it break my heart seeing u this way...i treasure her as a buddy who r there when i need help n i wont forget that even u hate me...

i just feel like crying rite now coz all combo prob in my mind..i need my hubby to be with me in my side rite now but i cant be selfish to take him away from her friend who want her to enjoy with em....

shit shit..the feeling soo shit....im crying now like wat the hell rite...

im dammmmmmmmmmmm tired...i juz need to cry...apologize if im being rude to anyone...

peace

2009-01-25T04:12:00.002+08:00

heyy..im juz happy today..happy coz i got the time spend with my hubby...yeah!! tanx for the night and the toking...yeah i feel happy everitime spent with u..let us forget our past n start all over again...about my mistake n ur mistake juz make it as a pelajaran to make this relationship workz...im soo happy to get to b with u again...i juz dont wish to cry again...im juz hoping that wat ever u say come out from ur heart...

i want to spent everi singal time with my hubby coz when he start his work im sure u will be v. bz..

k im attach with him again...azaq...my love n my life...i cant leave w/o him..yeah we both make mistake n i pray for the bez for our relationship....tanx for the anniversary that u made for me...k ppl itz SABUN k...k itz weired but i love it coz it have been made by him...tanx sayang...i love it alot...happy 5th mth anni....

k i wanna sleep k soo damn tired...k beb gtg..

peace

2009-01-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

sorie ppl tak update my blog dah lama...hmm kinda bz n malas nak write...there's many thingy happening around me...well update my blog daily now k...

its hurt to think about your past...but sometime u have to give a chance..the feeling fear still i feel till now but i juz pray for the bez...i dont wish to cry again...the bleed is heal but the scar still have...hmmm...but i juz hoping for the bez...give a try again....

i need to go skool k skg also my class...3 mth left...seriouzly i piss off...

k will update tomorrow k...

peace

2009-01-06T14:39:00.003+08:00

hey im sorrie i didnt blog my entry yeah...kinda want be alone for awhile...im fine ppl!!

i use to cry everiday but not anymore i juz feel soo tired..i realise tht i juz being soo stupid to cry everyday for a person who does not care about my feeling...now u came in my life n say that u love me...wat??after my heart have been hurt by u deeply...sooo depply...itz still bleeding...being with u alwayz make me fear...that how much u siksa i coz of ur stupid love story with aniz...u told me now there's nothig between u n aniz but u know wat coz of her u have hurt me deeply...hearing ur name n aniz name will juz shiver me to the spine..u say coz of my lie hurt u...damn it...u know wat badingkan dgn apa u have done it tak hurt mcm mana i hurt...from love i beginning to hate u...everynite before i sleep saw ur pix make me cry coz remind me of u...itz soo painful..it easy for u to say to start a fresh but u know wat u ask me for break at wrong time...U TAK PAYAH NAK TAHU WAT IS MY PROBLEM,IM HAPPY MY FREW AROUND ME HELP ME TO SETTLE MY PROB...that's one reason y now i hate u sooo much..falling in love with juz make me realise that love is not as sweet as wat i think...azaq u kill the old me....i juz hate u n aniz....i still remember wat u say to me before " hati u ni dah tertutup utk perempuan lain selain bini i,kunci pintu dah u buang jauh2 utk pompan lain....everithing about aniz, aku akan ingat segala apa kelua dari mulut azaq....anizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz n azaqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq realli no feeling ppl on earth...maaf i cant be like ur umie yg lemah lembut...im idah who leave with her bad history n grow up to b a slekeh person that tak setaraf dgn u....

2008 tahun paling berdarah utk aku....selamat tingal 2008 dan selamat kekasih hati ku azaq...

i juz want free like a bird...no more cry no more hurting....

peace

2008-12-29T07:18:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING!!cey cey..wake up soo damn early yee!!!...hmmm...

yesterday, finish work at 5 than go karoake session wif my darling mau dua org, mcm sweet gitu kan...ajak mel n wan dorg tak leh make it...tanx eh mau kasi wan nyanyi lagu wan tak perna nyanyi...

After that i go to wan void deck wif mau kat boon keng wif mau,she have some family prob...mel join us...she bring food for us....realli they make me not left out..im soo happy...mel dance like a bapok make me laugh till i cry...hahahhaha...sundal!!

tue ni they have pit..they us me along to ton...gee..seram dgn bdak tua2...hahhahhahahaha.....

2dy play netball kat kallang stadium..yes yes yes!!

k i want to sleep again now...terbgn pasal nana kol me..haiyooo...

kk love u all pipz...

peace

2008-12-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

k im home...dah mandi...aku seriouzly damn freaking realli soooo sooo penat..yesterday 1 whole night tak tido...mata dah mcm mak panda...today soo damn gerek wif my gang...they make my day..oppz sorie tertido kat pool..penat sgt arh...tomorow morning shift again..than treat mau pi karoake..aku dah janji nak treat..ada rezeki sikit n aku tak nak mukir janji..soo ya she also been helping me alot yaw...aku mampu belanja satu org jek..haha..my pay like damn piss me off..k i settle all my dept n a bit of my bill..haizzz...wat to do kan....kk tanx ppl for lending me that time when i need yeah pay u guyz back..no worriez ait....

sorrie to those who call me juz now i need to cut short..my batt left 1 bar...been talking to her on fon after my work untill i reach marina...yesterday forget to charge my fon...haizz...

k i want to sleep...tomorow 9-5..arhhhh..tired..im soo tired today...1st time i say im sleepy...

btw to someone, nak tag plz use real name...k dah..malas bbol byk

kk peace yaw

2008-12-27T01:12:00.004+08:00

heyaa!! damn my mata makin rabak k buat aku demam laah kan...sok macam mana nak work ni?? pagi laak tu....k nvm dok umah otak aku lagy sot pikiran pasal dia...tadi at toilet ada byk blood tau...aku punya terkejot...i go out the toilet aku tanya laah kan mak aku..she said my dad blood..kaki dia...seriouzly soo bad...wah!!1st time aku risau k..aku pi amik ubt2 tertentu kasi mak aku...my mum saw my eyez than dia kata..."korg suka sasahkan aku"...hati aku terus berkecai sey...dah lah dektu buat aku skg mak aku laak...i dont ask anyone help k..aku sakit aku tak mintak pi doc per...nenek aku pulak at my uncle house..i realli need someone to tok too..mau kol me...i tok to her than i feel better now...she make me laugh wif ani n ana story...siak arh mau...mau tanx alot:)

esok aku keja kul 8pagi-3ptg...than tgk laah keadaan...mata aku dok...

"senang sey u ckp..jgn nagiz..tapi u perna tak pikir kejap perasaan i..kalau u tak dpt terima i kenapa bohong i sey...asal sey u...asal u happy tgk my life merana...u tipu i bulat2 sey...asal sey asal sey....i tink seeing me down will make u happy kan..k syg i will that happen jadi puas hati u...kalau u sayang sgt bini u jgn buat i mcm ni...i pon ada perasaan...u n her jek ada perasaam....tapi i mcm mana...i promise will make u happy my dear azaq if that make u puas n make u happy...hope ur love story u n anis will kekal atas kehancuran hati org lain.....u realli kill me azaq...."

kk ppl let me terus terang....nak tahu kenapa aku break ngan azaq pasal diri aku

WHEN AKU 1ST MEET DIA AKU BOHONG DIA..BILA DAH METAIR DGN DIA AKU ASIK TIPU DIA AJEK..ITU YG BUAT DIA RASA AKU TAK IKHLAS DGN DIA...K TAPI LET MAKE THIS CLEAR AKU TAK PERNA TIPU DIA MAIN BELAKANG DIA K...MMG AKU CONTACT SU EX AKU..TAPI SETAKAT PINJAM DUIT DIA...ITU JEK!! NOT MORE...MMG AKU PENIPU...TAPI AKU TAK PERNA TIPU YG AKU IKHLAS SYG DIA...AKU DAH JUJUR SEMUA DEKAT DIA N AKU DAH BLG SEMUA REASON AKU BUT STILL KENAPA AKU KENA MERANA LAGY...MMG AKU TAK PERNA PHM DIA,ANIZ TAKE 1 WEEK TO AMIK HATI DIA TAPI AKU SI BODOH NI 3 BULAN PON TAK BOLEH AMIK HATI DIA..AKU MMG DASAR BODOH NAK MAMPOZ....ARHHHHHHHHHHHH....

i love her sey korg sgt2...killing me each day...everithing remind me of her..ya itz true aku mmg nk dia alik..tapi aku tak mampu amik hati dia...ya allah wat into me...aku bukan nak mintak simpati juz kenapa aku dibuat mcm ni...i juz cant stop cryinggggggggg againnnnnnnn....u say start a freah as fwen but u lieeeeeeeeeee!! kenapa?? u tahu sakitttt...i juz cant pull myself together right now..i will say this again if tgk i jatoh n suffer boleh tebuz alik semua salah i kat u,boleh buat u happy..i will do it....

tanx azaq selama 3 bulan u buat i kenal erti sayang dan u sedarkan i...utk terakhir kali aku nak ckp i love u yes i do n it is not a lie since from the start..i love n care for u alot...pray for happiness...

plzz ppl dont tag me...i love her is my business...i hurt i wont bother anyone of u anymore...this is my blog is wat i want to say..i love u alootz..soo dont tag...im too weak arh...

peace

2008-12-26T22:16:00.002+08:00

10.17pm...kk ni i juz wake up k...damn aku mimpi ular laah sey....my eyez??feel a bit better...mesti baik sebelum esok coz im working morning laah sey...byknyer aku nyer sey...btw i dissapoited in u...u lied!! u ask me not too but u lied...seriouzly u juz playing wif me ait...i dont know watz ur motive...1st u blame me for everything now u want to blame me again...haizz...this is wat u say start a fresh as a frend no more lie..but u lying azaq...

k ppl i will update wat hapen kat play semlm k after i bath....hey im soo hungry but no mood to eat...too much tinking in my head...k takpe boleh kurus jadi tak ada org kutuk...kk crap..im toking rubbish now...

after i wake up i realise i should meet su today to give her stuff rite...i totally forget..clean forget...apologize yaw...will meet u after my work tomorow to pass the stuff...seriouzly i forget...

k jap before pape...i want to share n joy n sadness..my joy i got a letter..went i read it im happy coz itz my 1st step of coming out from my darkness..about the letter??nahhh i wont say untill itz happen n confirm...i sad coz the person who promise to be by my side after i find myself lying to me n i cant find her coz she confuse...how i wish i can share this joy wif u but y should u hurt n dissapoit me...i tink u lum puas sakitkan hati ini kan....

kk lagi aku nagiz...dah laah bosan arh nak mandi....

peace

2008-12-26T17:24:00.003+08:00

kk ppl im updating my blog again....well NO aku bukan aru bgn..aku tak leh tido my hp keep ringing..diff2 ppl ask to lpk but i juz have no mood arh to ans..sorry guyz..my eyes damn pain sey..dah mcm panda k...i forcing myself to sit infront the comp rite now...my abg keep nag n nag...plzz stop nagging can...bingit arh bro..but tanx for ur shoulder bro,boleh harap jugak bila aku nak cry on...u know y i cry he play this song meraung than suddenly i break down n cry...u must c his face when suddenly i cry like no one business...he tod coz he nag i cry..than i sit n tell him everithing no more liez..he said " dah dah gemuk tak paya nagiz mcm pompan sewel bute jugak mata idah"...byk2 he said that lagy aku nagiz...tapi takpe tanx for ur shoulder yg tak seberapa yeeer...

ya i know ur blog is juz a blog...but u stop n tink ur blog have hurt me again...wat r u trying to do...u trying to kill me again is it??1st u said that u love me than now u say u cant forget ur wife n ur feeling towars me mayb juz a care,u also confuse about ur feeling...plzz i also have feeling...y should u do this to me again...wat am i to u sey...u say to start afresh as a fwen but u lie to me n im not lying to u animore...my heart hurts alotz..do u happy to c me in this state?? im a human being plzz dont make me like a human who dont have feeling....that night i tot after i tok to u everything is clear but y u this to me...u know i juz cant stop crying rite now...u know that..have u ever think about my feeling...wat u care is ur feeling...sakit sakit sakit....

AZAQ KAU TAK AKU SAYANG KO SANGAT KENAPA KAU BUAT AKU MACAM NI KENAPA AZAQ!!!

2008-12-26T07:29:00.002+08:00

k ppl...im back home..7am sharp after ton after my night life at play...i juz have no mood to update wat hapen in play ait....will update later2 part....

i juz cant go n sleep k...i go this person blog..shit!! i hate going ur blog...y should my tears rollin down again...y should it...pain so damn pain....i should'nt go ur blog...arhhh!!im confuse!!! damn the pain came back...y? y? n y?..i juz want to keep it to myself coz who am i to u now rite..juz a frend..i hate this damn weired feeling...i hate crying..............i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!y should again u hurt the feeling..................................!!!!

plzzz god tell me y ppl alwayz make me confuse.....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

my eye is pain after infection from my conta lence..than now im crying.....my eyez n heart hurt alotzzzzzzzz nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz wat actuali happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y should that happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate....................................

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-25T03:53:00.011+08:00

k ppl i juz cant sleep ait this is some pix i edit ait..i juz miss her soo much..haiz..miss hugging her in my arm...damn!!...wat into me?? well ppl wont understand how the feeling is...yeah we have done mistake..me n her....itz hurt to recall all back but i juz cant turn back time...love for me to her is hard for me to xplain..yeah i hate her but my love is damn strong for her that i cant bring myself to hate but it juz make me miss her that much....no matter how stupid ppl ting is all about feeling...i guess,ppl out there have that feeling before rite??...only one word i love her still..yes i do...!!

to my dearest boi...plzz dont hurt urself..i know u love her..but dont hurt urself..i been tru in ur position...well when we love that person so much we intent to do stupid stuff to let all the anger out...ive learn one ting is only make u suffer dear...juz cry out loud it will make u feel east...if u love her have fate in her k...juz one word be strong n fight for ur love onez not by doing stupid stuff..love is wonderful but love also can be ur murderer...juz be strong:)

to my dearest yaya n ree..i love u both...no fighthing plzz..we know each other not long but i guess we have cry n laugh together..juz dont make it stop...i love u guyz n i do but itz hurt to c u guyz fighting....everione not perfect..juz one word from eme..forgive n forget dear darling....

i would like to shout out loud here to all my dearest fwen or should i call dearest family..tanx for being there when i need u guyz...all the wordz n encouragement...god have meet me with all wonderful ppl like u guyz..well guyz 1 promise from me i wont betray the friendship...u r all there when im sad n happy..i love u guyz..i use to ting i have no family but god have show me that i have a big family that i have to tresure...i love u guyz..yes i do!!

Shes starin at me
I’m sittin wonderin wat shes thinkin.
Nobodies talkin
Cause talkin just turns into screamin.
And now it’s I’m yellin over her
She yellin over me.
All that means
Is neither of us is listening.
and wats even worse
That we don’t even remember why were fighting.

peace....5.26am...

2008-12-24T01:45:00.006+08:00

heeeyy..im talking to her right now...tapi dia tertido...hembusan nafas nyer buat aku menitis air mata ku...hati berkata kenapa harus kita berakhir bergini..haizzz..i put the fon n cry out loud...i juz cant lie that i still love her soo much even hati aku masih sakit...im happy with myself now but i lost part of me...

Tomorrow...25 dec...haiz...i use to look forward every 25th but now every 25th will alwayz make me sad n remind me of u...16 aug,masih segar dlm ingatan aku..pertama kali tatap wajahnya dan pertama kali aku berbohong pada nya..25 aug ciuman pertama dan hati ku ini hanya miliknya tapi ya berakhir tanpa aku meminta...sesungguhya hati ini pedih atas ungkapan akhir mu tetapi aku tidak mampu berbohong yg aku masih mencintai mu...tiada barisan ayat harus aku tulis mengapa aku masih menyintai mu..akan ku kunci semua itu dalam2...

this song is for u sayang khas dari hati ini....i juz miss u...

Lirik Lagu Rossa - Ayat Ayat Cinta

Desir pasir dipadang tandus
segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisahku diantara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinan ku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

(chorus)
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkinku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cinta ku padamu

Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggal kan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud... (Last x2)

(back to second line)

[ thanks to izham.shah[at]yahoo.com for correcting this lyric ]

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YES PPL I JUZ CANT LIE TO MYSLEF I STILL LOVE AZAQ!!
Y SHOULD YOU LEAVE ME!!U KNOW THAT I LOVE U THAT MUCH!!
Y SHOULD U TINK THAT I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU...I ALWAYZ CARE FOR U TILL NOW!!
Y SHOULD U TINK IM NOT SINCERE WITH U...COZ OF MY LIE?? I LOVE U..THAT I NEVER LIE EVEN FROM THE START
Y SHOULD YOU Y SHOULD U Y SHOULD U LEAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ME......
OHHH GOSH IM CRYING...DO U KNOW HOW MUCH I MISH U ..OHH GOD TABAHKAN DIRI INI UTK HADAPI INI SEMUA....KENAPA AKU HARUS KEHILANGAN DIA...SAYANG U WILL ALWAYZ BE MY SAYANG EVEN U LEAVE ME...I JUZ CANT LIE ANYMORE

im tired i need a sleep..now 4.50am

peace

2008-12-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

hey nak share jek apa aku tgh buat skg...well im watching shahadat cinta at http://www.dennyshotspot.com/

cerita tentang cinta terhadap agama n cinta terhadap manusia...hey guess wat aku rasa tersentuh when i watch this show..suddenly shead me to tears...i mish my grandpa suddenly....

kk untill then i update more ya nak keep on watching till the end...btw dennyshotspot u can watch indo,bolly,holly movie...juz to share wif u guyz...till then yaw...

peace

2008-12-23T19:06:00.002+08:00

Good evening ppl....i juz woke up...i have a bad headace suddenly today when i wake up in the morning...i have a nab,nenek kejotkan pasal dah prayer time...i wake up and wash up...tak leh pray red light daah..i feel better now after a long nap..sorrie ppl nvr reply ur msg...tak dgr hp n tak larat gilaaa...haiyoo...

i juz tak tau apa aku nyer salah..my mum nvr tok wif me...she accuse me wat i nvr did...haiz..i juz dont bother to fight after all end up it only hurt me..i know myslef...y alwayz i get the blame...

yesterday i have long tok wif her...apa aku rasa?? happy,takot,risau n all feeling campur adok arh..entahlaa...haizz..i realli dissapoited when i get to know the truft..haizz..if ur fwen tink that i dont care about u, up to u n them i know myself...from the start i tak tau show u much i do love u that much i juz want u but end up it turn out this way...i dont blame anyone..i juz blame myself...mayb right i juz dont know how to take care of u...if my past hurting u, i dont blame u...how i do care n love u biarlah i juz keep it deep down in my heart...wat happen next aku serahkan pada takdir...i juz to scared to wish for more n hope for more...i dont want to fall n get hurt if wat i wish to turn out to b lain...the feeling still the same from the start for u...

peace...

2008-12-21T14:00:00.002+08:00

selamaaaaaat ptg.....kk ayu,nidah and ernie maafkan saya pasal sudah terlambat yeeer..hehe..sorie sorie aku aru bgn sey ni..i know janji kul 1 kan kan...i realli tired lagipon semlm alih2 emo pasal tak leh tido pasal benda bodoh tak dpt faedah...hehehe...maaf yeeer..ampun kan patik!! kita meet kat stadium jek nanto tgk bola....mampoz aku kena maki ngan budak2 hari ni....

got msg from nana...kena marah lagy coz of my previous entry...tahu laah..saper nak mengharap kan lagy cuma luahkan apa kat dalam hati jek...alaa nagiz normal laah ubat dok ubat...tak pasal2 dpt maki free...hahaha...

muni semlm byk ko punya aku toggok vodka...aku mmg msg ko pukul 4.30pagi bukan mimpi laaah...aku kat umah toggok vodka otak ko...aku msg ko pasal alih2 muka ko jelma arh...ptg karang kol u k....

kk aku nak mandi,makan n kejotttt lahabau hazirah... btw no more lies from me saper rasa aku bohong up to u...ckp tak guna kan kan kan...well aku suka org2 yg suka rasa2...kk aku dah mepek..yakdish yakdish.....

peace....

2008-12-21T02:50:00.003+08:00

kk ppl im back home from work freaking tired...i keep on singing at work untill my boss naik bingit..aku nyanyi pasal aku happy....tak bedek!! aku happy realli happy after being sooo sad for this past few weekz..lama sey tak rasa happy...

sebelum tu aku nak share sikit arh...u know wat make me strong..after i hear this song..tahu tak actualli kan song is not only song, kalau ko paham lyric itz song it can be meaningful to u tau...seriouzly...kk this is part of the lyric title THIS IS ME

I Always been the kind of girl that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world of what I’ve got to say
But I have this dream right inside of me
I’m gonna let it show
It’s time
To let you know, to let you know

This is real, this is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I found, who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

Do you know what it’s like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you’re the shining star
Even though it’s seems
Like it’s to far away
I have to believe by myself, it’s the only way

This is real, this is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me!
Now, I found, who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me…

i dont give a damn anymore about my past history n stupid old love story...it will alwayz make me sad...even ppl say they undersatnd u but actualli u urself understand how u feel...

let me reveal everyting here at my blog...this is my blog my say...

since kecik aku dahagakan kasih sayang seorg mak n bapak...org2 selalu pijak kepala aku since aku kecik tak kira kawan atau lawan...itu ygi buat aku jadi pendedam...aku tipu org2 yg aku rasa patut kena tipu...tapi kadang2 aku tipu ada sebab tapi end up aku jugak disalahkan....sampai aku bayangkan org yg tak perna wujud...mmg org pikir aku gila tapi ini semua pasal manusia petingkan diri dan kebahagiaan dorg sendiri..tidak ada org tahu dari mulut aku semua sejarah aku tapi cuma ada seorg insan yg aku cintai sampai skg tapi dia milik org lain skg dan jugak dari awal...aku tahu aku byk bohong pada si dia, tapi bohong aku pasal bersebab tapi aku tahu aku tak patut bohong...aku cuba nak berubah utk si dia tapi dia tak kasi masa kat aku...15 tahun aku hidup dgn sejarah aku tak akan dgn sekelip mata aku boleh berubah...aku benci pasal ada perasaan sayang sangat kuat utk dia...sakit dia sampai sakarang...sakit!!!....hingga perna aku doakan keburukan utk si dia ngan sang isteri tapi pasal tak sampai hati dan kuatnya sayang ku padanya aku doakan supaya dia dpt kebahagiaan...setiap mlm sebelum tido muka si dia jelma kat kepala ini sampai tak dpt lelapkan mata..aku amik air sembahyang dan tunaikan sembahyang hajat,dkt sejadah aku nangiz supaya lenyapkan rasa sayang ku pada si dia pasal sakit sungguh hati ini...aku tak berpeluang nak jumpa dia,pasal si dia mmg tak nak jumpa muka ini...apa salah dan dosa aku...lihat si dia bersama isteri n anak aku gembira kerana kau dpt kebahagiaan ko tapi hati ini tak boleh aku nafikah,aku menagiz kesakitan dengan hati remut rendam.....haizz..janji2 mu yg ko perna janji utk buat utk aku masih aku tunggu sampai skg tapi aku rasa si dia pon rasa tak bermakna langsung skg...aku mmg iklas angap mu sebagai sahabat ku kerana aku tak nak jadi idah yg dulu yg pendedam....terus terang aku rindu dengar suara mu n pelukan mu..tapi itu semua bukan milik ku lagi tapi milik insan yg sangat dia sanyangi...air mata aku mengalir lagy skg pedih dia masih sampai skg....sumpah hati ini sakit hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu....mmg betul dgn sembahyang sahaja dpt tenangkan hati ini...cinta manusia hanya sebuah lakonan di dunia ini...

maaf atas luahan hati ku ini pasal aku tak nak jadi pembohong pada org dan pada diri sendiri lagi yg penting aku tak nak jadi pendendam...semoga tuhan akan sentiasa beri ruang utk aku gembira suatu hari nanti....

well ppl in me still stuck wif that person love...well i try to change it the love to be love as a frenz...semoga ko bahagia bersama umie dan anak2 mu....doa ku sentiasa bersama mu...maaf atas kesalahan diri ini selama ini...terima kasih kenalkan diri ini erti percintaan dan kesabaran....dan jugak tidak lupa aku belajar utk tidak sakitkan hati org yg menyayangi kita sepenuh hati pasal sakitnya aku dah rasa...well i tink is karma for me coz aku kecewakan seorg insan yg sangat mencintai ku hingga skg tapi aku tak nak buat silap lagy utk bersamanya pasal dahagakan kasih sayang..tapi aku tak perna menyesal...

ppl dada aku dah sakit i need a sleep...i juz have one wish everytime i wake up from my sleep...i wont say it out biar aku simpan..walaupon wish aku ni kecik tapi cukup utk ubat hati ini...

peace....

2008-12-20T13:17:00.001+08:00

k ppl so far only this 2 pix i can upload..seriouz damn slow laah my comp...

Aku just wake up...penat gilaa laah sey reach home at 4.30am..Bz gilaa kat keja, customer come n go...my supervisor buli aku semlm sey suro mop the floor mentang2 aku dah lama tak keja..hehe...after work nana,cikgu ,atiq n nor fetch me..nana bwk car...kita eat at adamz rd than kita go mustafa...dorg pon asik buli aku sey..dorg kekek2 when aku sing at the car lagu numb coz aku buat lyric sendiri...jahat sey!!dorg kata dorg rindu aku...sooo sweet!!ohh ya dorg kekek bila aku bbol english jugak sey dorg kata dah mcm org batak bbol...hahahha...siak!! skg ni tak tau ker aku dok bbol english step phm tapi berterabuh...hahahha...well well well!! hahahha...we send atiq 1st...aku lompat kat car park mcm pocong si atiq dah takot run all the way naik umah dia...gilaa nyer pompan...heee...

HARI INI AKU AKU KEJA LAGI 5-1AM...waduh2...cari nafkah dok...mcm phm...

ohh ya...utk lul eh..tanx eh aku bangon jek ko msn ngan aku ckp ko mimpi buruk..munkin org ko kenal akan pass away...ko mimpi gigi ko semua bogeh....yakdish!! jgn laah...aku ni aru abiz sad2 ko nak aku sad2 agi...yakdish yakdish!!

utk mau....u kita nyer date jgn lupa k kat cable car on mon....hahahhaah....mau kan date aku sekarang...rosak MOK!!

yeah yeah!! besok pegi gym than swim kat jurong...yeah yeah!!! with who?? ngan ernie sulastri..my date jugak...hahahha....bez bez..lama sey tak swim...dont forget my boya itik k:).....

ohh ya...ibu ask me take o level sey...tapi c 1st how laah kan coz i have my own plan..jgn tanya asal dia suro amik o level...aku pon tak tau...tapi he ask me n fairul pegi amik....nak tau subject apa....malay,eng n math...mati mati!!fairul mak ko mmg nak kita mati..hahahahah...sayang ibu....

kk aku nak siap pegi work work....ohh lupa utk lekok...degil budak satu ni doc kasi mc suro dok umah dia merayap...ni arh dah tua degil...hahaa...juz take care ait lekok....

peace yaw!!

2008-12-19T13:35:00.002+08:00

K PPL...NAK UPDATE BENDA JAP SEBELUM AKU PI WORK NI....

KAN AKU DAH LUPA NAK UPDATE ABOUT "GANG FIGHT" KAT DOWNTOWN....STUPID GUYZ PUKUL POMPNA...AYU,SOFI N WATIE KENA PENUMBUK FREE DARI BUDAK2 LELAKI NI...LEBAM MUKA AYU...AKU?? AKU MASIH BOLEH MAKE FUN..KALAU AKU KENA PUKUL, AKU IBARATKAN MUKA DORG SI DIA NANTI DAH LAIN CITA LAK KAN....HAHAHAHA...WELL AKU MAIN LARI2 KAT SITU COZ 10 LELAKI KALAU KENA ROGOL TAK ADA HASIL...HAHAHHA....OHH NAK TAU REASON Y THEY PUKUL US PASAL KAN REALLI A LAME REASON THEY GIVE..SERIOUZ....MALAS NAK CITA...!!TAPI SERIOUZLY BOI CUTE..DAH IKOT END UP CKP " EH AKU TAKOT MAK AKU MASOK AKU KAT PETAPIS"...CIBAI SAK..KITA SEMUA KETAWA NAK TERKENCING.....BTW THIS ALL YP BOIZ REALLI MEPEK K....

YAP YAP...AKU MALAS NAK FALL IN LOVE AGAIN...LOVE SUCKZ...MAKE U SUFFER LIKE HELL K...REALLI LAAH...I DONT BELIEVE THERES LOVE IN THIS WORLD...SELFISH LOVE ADALAH...WELL AFTER MY LOVE STORY AKU N SI DIA REALLI MAKE ME REALISE THAT LOVE CAN MAKE U STUPID PERSON ON EARTH....WELL FUCK LAAH LOVE...PASAL SKG IM STUCK COZ THE FEELING STILL STRONG FOR DIA...WAHDUH!! PAYOH OH...WAN NUR ZAHIDAH BTE AZIZ PLZZ WAKE UP SHE HAVE A LOVELY WIFE N LOVELY DAUGHTHER...YAKDISH YAKDISH....C WAT HAPEN TO ME GILA BAYANG....SAPPPPP!! HAHAHHAHA.....DAMN DAMN!!

KK LAH AKU NAK KEJA...PAYOH ARH CITA PANJANG2.....

PEACE....

2008-12-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

k...today im freaking tired k...well kita pi main netball kat kallang...soo gerek k...with kakak SIA..hahah....they r freaking kecoh k.....the soccer player step nak main netball end up it turns to b captain ball...damn i still cant upload gamba....damn damn....k takpe....will try again ait....

to my beloved ayu...tanx ajar aku english..well get free lesson from her...so sweet...will learn from my mistake yaw :) ..... i will call u cikgu ayu k skg...hehe.. study time for me.... siap beli buku english sey aku....

tomorow aku keja k...5-1am...after long break....kinda miss working laaa...

when i listen to this song, it suddenly reminds me of her when i first met her at wedding funtion...hahaha....k tapi we r fwen now.... ahakz...the song kinda childish...muhahaa...k juz listen yaw ppl... kan kan aku dah mish!! yakdish!! hahah...kk peace!!

2008-12-18T12:19:00.003+08:00

helooo ppl..seriouzly nak update my blog semlm than tertido suddenly have fever!!...yakdish..wake up soo fresh tapi masih batok2....yesterday tanx fwen make my day.....lup u....

At 2 i go my car prac....soo happy dah lama tak drive than get a change to drive again...weee!! meet up with watie n sofie kat umah sofi watch HEY BABY!! seriouzly the show realli cool yaw....

pegi shisha...with nidah,ayu,boi,mau,sofi,watie n hazi....yeah they make me smile all the way...take pix..k nak upload pix tadi but keep on error so nanti laaah yeee....

Oh yaa ppl....IM SINGAL!!...she want us go separate way.....i respect her keputusan..even the feeling still strong juz that lup cant force kan...btw no one at fault...both of us at fault senang cita ait...well i will treat her as a fwen coz well she have been a great advisor n make me wake up....but up to her kan kan....one nite i have cry all the way when i wake up i juz tell myself that life not end here u still got long way to go:) i juz mish her....btw get well soon k lekok....

Today playing netball at kallang...hehe...netball eh...hahah...kk juz having fun with the rest....

k my step father lost a job again...my mum keep on nag n nag....haiyoo...everyone get scolded including me..the bez daughter after all...hehehe.....my grandma n me make fun of my mum...gerek!! hahaha...end up my mum majok with my nenek..cute laah kan....

well ppl i have enough crying n hurting myself...seriouzly i being sooo stupid.....i juz want smile n make lotz lotz of fwen but NOT LOVER...favour eh sooo penat falling in love...enough sey....

damn my englisg suckz...pada pembaca yg tak phm jgn laah baca yeer..

i luve myself......yakdish!!

sign off

2008-12-17T02:15:00.002+08:00

kk before aku start my entry sorie if my english or malay berterabuh asalkan korg phm dah cukup..firstly ppl keep asking y i delete all my previous entry well i wanna start all fresh..no lie n all the truft...well ppl let me admit here in my blog all my previous enrty there's are lie but not all k...well i lie coz of a reason...someone give me a wake up call not to lie...well im learning...im lying coz of my history....

im back from cameron sun nite...but sorie to all my fwen who trying to get tru me...sorie i juz no mood to text or ans any call...but hey im back safe but seriouzly kena food poisoning eh...my grandma sick since we in cameron...she cant walk much...her leg realli weak...will update pix about cameron asap k....btw at tuas checkpoint that nite i saw this particular person...well the world realli small when i saw this person...i juz look n smile...

sit at home whole day on mon...seriouzly perut aku sakit semcm...aku tido all the way....tanx hall come down all the way to sengkang to meet me...well yeah im ok but perot prob...will b ok soon i tink....

to that someone....

i realli do mish u soo much...well kat sini aku nak pohon sepuluh jari kalau aku ada buat silap..i dont blame u totaly if u treat me this way...mayb part of it is my fault...i know i being soo annoying,dependent n a lier for u...i dont blame u...i juz blame myself...seriouzly im tanxful coz i get a change to tell u my bad history...even i hoping u give me time to change but end up it turn out this way...mayb itz fated for me dont have a change to get love from anyone...if hearing my name n c my face just mke u shivers to ur spine...i will keep distance from u, i juz dont want coz of me u fall sick again...i juz pray from far hoping u get well soon...no call or msg from u since that nite after the hurting msg...i wait every singal day, im juz hoping get 1 phone call from u..it will juz make me smile...i tak berniat nak buat u in this state...i love u n i do care till now...i juz hate my history coz it make me leave in the dark till now...i've promise u that nite that i will come out from the dark.. like i do promise u but i juz cant tell the time...i tak nak jadi beban bagi u juz dont hate me n plz have fate in me...no one have fate in me i juz hope u do...im sorie for being not a perfect gal for u....i juz hate my past n hate myself....i lup u....im sorie for wat i did.....

i realli need to b alone ppl..sorie didnt reply any of ya msg ait.....will get back to all of u when im feeling better...juz hoping my grandma get well soon..itz hurting c her in this state....i only have u now...my grandma is my everyting....

sign off....